Head searching for it's tail, forever.

The sense of being a self and the the sense of separation and not-rightness emerge at the same time. The mind thinks: well if that’s not there then what is. the stuff of the mind. the shadows, the pointing inward, outward, here there, fragmentation. and the secret it hides in this endless activity is that it was never anything real. not like it thinks it is. the snake eating its own tail. in the astological alphabet, rahu and ketu, the demon head and tail. hungry, always hungry. It thinks it wants things, but really it just wants its own tail, and it will never get it.